DAY12

today i woke up at 7 to take the ACT. when i was done i ran to my car because i was starvingggg, and saw a vase of flowers by my car & a note. i know yall don't want to hear me go on and on about jacob but it really, really made my day. (:

-went to the fair!

- i LOVE fried pickles....aka 'snookies'.

- went bowling, and lost.

- had an unforgettable day with the people i love the most!

DAY11

today i can't do anything right. on the bright side, i got david archuleta's new cd. <3

DAY10

ehh.

DAY9

i have a list of things lined up i want to get with my next pay check. my goal today is to be less materialistic and more giving, like i used to be. having my boyfriend buy me everything ISNT an option, i'm a big girl, i make my own money. (;

i love this song...

oh, and i miss my cousin mac to deattttthhhh. <3

DAY8

one word to describe today.....productive!

got school work done, reffed a game with jake hahaha (that was a sight!) & then let off some stress at the gym with my man, helllllur.

 and if ryan and maci don't just get back

together already i'm going to be really sad.

DAY7

well today, was a monday.....

came home early, i'm sick. went to work. worked out at the gym with jake, now about to get some gooooood sleep.

oh, and i TRIMMED jacob's beard. hahahaha <3

& we danced to this song before he left. (;

this is kinda weird. ya'll like, know my whole life.

 

DAY6

today was our last day at the beach. but it was probably the best :) we went fishing and caught our first fishy! the biggest one on the pier! haha, illegally, but still. only us would try to catch a jelly fish with a huge crab cage, and no bait. (: haha today was so much fun. i love being with jacob. you have no idea how sweet he is. --> click dis.

thank you, jacob. <3

DAY5

today was mine & jacob's one month, haha. :)

we went fishing in the inlet & ended up getting soaked. that night we went to this cool mongolian grill thing, it was good. theeeen went to dr. screams haunted house. having jake behind me was a bad idea, i got kneed in the butt a few times, haha. <3 we came back home & took a long walk on the beach, it was perfect because the moon was shining on the waves & the lights from the pier were beautiful. we came back home & watched lifetime, aww. i fell asleep and he carried me down stairs and tucked me in. today was perfect.

-thanks for reading, now listen! (:

DAY4

"funny how fast i can fix things when i figure out the problem."
t.g.i.f!

today i'm going to the beach with my family & my big adorable boyfriend! thank god i get a break from this busy week to clear my mind and visit my favorite place, the pier. <3 thing's are looking up for a change?!

DAY3

I. Can't. Take. Anymore. Of. This.

gotten so caught up in stupid things, i forgot who i was.

click.

DAY2.

while you're reading, listen.

on this day, i've realized more than i have in the past 17 years.

"trust" has lost its meaning, and it's purpose. everyone is falling apart and starting today i'm finishing what i started. say thank you about the little things in life. that you can breathe on your own, that you can walk, that you can HEAR your parents' voices, and most importantly, be real. i'm sorry.

oh, & i worked today. ^^^ (;

jacob sang that song to me tonight, and for some reason, i felt safe & protected.

<3

365 pictures & songs.

today was long & boring.

just burried in school & work.

cliiiick.

but laying in the backyard under the stars with my boyfriend made my day. & i've decided that no matter how much money i don't have, i'm always going to give. no matter what.

bucket list?

i stole this idea from sammy,

but i thought it would be fun to organize a list of things i hope to do before i die.
just listen.

• go back to jamaica.
• graduate from college.
• design a purse.
• go to new york city.
• go to ireland with someone i love.
• get married on the beach, then run into the ocean <3
• prove that i've got it together.
• be someone's role model, even for just a day.
• teach something to an elementary school class.
• spoil my future children. :)
• buy a white range rover.
• give back to my parents, for all they've done for me.
• VOTE!
• take part in a government meeting.
• spend a day at a nursing home and talk to all the patients.
• feed the homeless once a month.
• have my own 'style'.
• show that i'm confident.
• adopt and asian girl.
• meet maci from teen mom.
• hear a song i made on the radio.
• be successful.
• give to as many people as i can.

My life be like----

i can already tell this week is going to be hell.

there is so much work to catch up on, so many tests & i can't catch a break.

that's really all i have to say.

on the bright side, beach this weekend. <3

anyways, these are my baby boy's. :)

"just because you get help from someone doesn't mean you've failed, it just means, you're not alone."

well today i met blair murphy. girl you're gorgeous and i'm glad you cried with me in that movie! haha you're fun to be with and we'll all get together again soon <3 today was nothing less than perfect. i realized that life is too short to let anyone get in the way of what you want, and its stupid to let someone you call a friend to keep you from someone that makes you happy. samantha lynn murphy, i love our girl talks. i've never met someone so sweet, cute and outgoing in my life! i seriously love hanging out with you and your family. its like we're all there for each other and that means more to me than anything. this morning when you texted me, i had a really good feeling about today, and crying with you and blair in the movies just topped it off <3 from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for being honest and real and true to me, i'll always be here to give you advice and support you through ANYTHING. i love you sammy. (:

the key to everything is hope.

if i could think of a word to sum up the past 3 days, it'd be.....pulchritudinous. (;

i'm seriously the happiest i've been since....well, honestly, ever. and i'm so thankful i have friends that have my back.



& your heart's the moon.

"It's lust, it's torturous, you must be a sorcerous, cause you just, did the impossible, gained my trust." -Eminem.

hello to anyone who reads this. thanks by the way, it feels good to get things off my chest. this cold weather has made my days go by slower. i've been busy a lot and i feel bad for not slowing down and giving my attention to those who deserve it. i'm always here.

 it's like i can't get enough of you. i see you all day and still miss you when i lay my head down to sleep at night. you make me realize that nothing else matters, you just do what's good for you, and let everyone else mind their own business. tonight, i laid there in your arms with tears running down my face. happy tears. i can't describe the way my heart feels around you, or my stomach filled with butterflies, or the sudden wave of happiness i get when i'm with you. does this make sense? so all of those feelings just came out, and i was over whelmed, you've got me boy. & i love it. :)

oh, and i want the world to know i love samantha lynn murphy. she's gorgeousssss & i love hanging with you at your house sammy. haha we're all just crazy and we've got to get everyone together again and play football! so i can be a pro now. since i was just saving up all my skillz....ya know...(; love you. <3

"i'm not going anywhere, so you should get to know me."

hey....well here are some things you might have already known, or would like to know, about me. :)

- i LOVE the beach.
- i want long hair...
- i only trust my parents, and jacob.
- my boyfriend gives me butterflies <3
- i work for the things i have.
- if you tried to start drama with me at school, i'd laugh.
- i want to be a CRNA.
- i'm smart.
- i don't really like shopping.
- i'm high matinance.
- i'm obssessed with purses.
- i don't like riding in a car alone.
- im deathly afraid of riding a moped.
- i listen to my music, loud.
- KID CUDI <3
- i can show you true love, because i grew up with it.
- i miss my blonde hair.
- my boyfriend is seriously the best.
- i hate when people brag.
- i can be independant.
- i realize we all take our health for granted, and i try not to.
- i just want to get out of high school.
- family guy is the greatesttttttt!
- you're probably bored reading this, oppps.
- i've been wearing sweat pants lately, because i could care less what i look like coming to school.
- did i mention my boyfriend is the best...<3
- a huge goal of mine is to have a big impact on someone's life before i die.
- i LOVE to dance. haha me & jake can break it dowwwwn. ;)
- when i grow up i want a mastiff, and he's gonna be an inside dog. :)
- i eat all the time...reese's are my favorite.
- i can't wait to work in a hospital & be successful.
- i should be studying right now, "ooohh nnooo..."
- well, thanks for reading <3

up, up & away.

"i be up up and away, 'cuz they gonna judge me anyways, so whatevaaaa." -kid cudi.

just listen (;

 

it feels good to be truly happy. thank you jacob scott murphy! <3 no one compares to you. 2 whole years ago you gave me a feeling i could never forget, and now you give me a feeling i could never describe. thank you for everything baby. :)

& thank you HENRY EDMONDS for letting me borrow this amazing ipod...i think im in love. you and michael make my morning's good. :) "the key to everything is hope."

well there's nothing new about today, seeing my baby boy then work!

-peaceee, ya'll.

KEEP YOUR HEAD UP.

this is the soundtrack to my lyfeee.

"i got issues nobody can see, and all of these emotions are pouring out of me." -kid cudi.

click dis yo.

im so sick of people changing, my mind rearranging, and our trust being broken. please can you just be real, like you used to be? just be yourself, you dont have to change to fit in, just be happy with who you are and BE you...how much fun would high school be if you went about it not caring? let's do it... :)